And just like that, I’m back in school. Back in classes, back in the routine. Although today was WAY more stressful than it had been in the past… I had to totally change around my schedule to accommodate this awesome job opportunity and that would have been stressful enough without a random hold being placed on my account. It took many phone calls and paying last-minute account fees to finally be able to switch around my schedule to get it to a place where I could breathe. All of this happened on the first day.
Yet, I still managed to enjoy the two courses I had today. Something about this year just feels different--maybe it’s because I’ve decided to involve myself in the theatre program with an intense course and a new stage managing position, maybe it’s because I’m no longer a lost baby freshman, maybe it’s living off-campus and loving it… or maybe it’s just all of the self-work I have put in these past couple of months leaving me with a confident foundation. Whatever it is, I’m feeling pretty good.
I’ve spent the past couple of hours programming (like the type-A person I am) my entire schedule into my phone/computer calendar. It made me realize just how busy I am actually going to be… classes, theatre, job, homework, student government, blog, etc. But, if you have read my blog before or know me at all, I thrive on being busy. Last year, I kind of convinced myself to not be busy. Then with an overall lack of motivation, it made it impossible for me to fully experience UofR. Well, fully experience it in a way that’s up to my over-programming standards.
It’s taken me some time to get on my feet--something I didn’t expect last year.
I never realized how okay it is to have a hard time adjusting until I went through it myself.
Now, I’m excluding my mental health situation which only added fuel to the fire. But I think we often think of anything that isn’t thriving as failure. No one is constantly peaking.
It may be too early to tell, but I already feel grateful that I decided to give UofR--and college in general--another chance. I could have easily transferred or taken the semester off but I’m back and ready to go for Round 2. And even if I decide down the road that this isn’t the place for me, I’m proud that I stayed to prove it wasn’t.
That’s all for now, enjoy getting back to the grind everyone!