first day recap
And just like that, I’m back in school. Back in classes, back in the routine. Although today was WAY more stressful than it had been in the past… I had to totally change around my schedule to accommodate this awesome job opportunity and that would have been stressful enough without a random hold being placed on my account. It took many phone calls and paying last-minute account fees to finally be able to switch around my schedule to get it to a place where I could breathe. All of this happened on the first day.
Yet, I still managed to enjoy the two courses I had today. Something about this year just feels different--maybe it’s because I’ve decided to involve myself in the theatre program with an intense course and a new stage managing position, maybe it’s because I’m no longer a lost baby freshman, maybe it’s living off-campus and loving it… or maybe it’s just all of the self-work I have put in these past couple of months leaving me with a confident foundation. Whatever it is, I’m feeling pretty good.
I’ve spent the past couple of hours programming (like the type-A person I am) my entire schedule into my phone/computer calendar. It made me realize just how busy I am actually going to be… classes, theatre, job, homework, student government, blog, etc. But, if you have read my blog before or know me at all, I thrive on being busy. Last year, I kind of convinced myself to not be busy. Then with an overall lack of motivation, it made it impossible for me to fully experience UofR. Well, fully experience it in a way that’s up to my over-programming standards.
It’s taken me some time to get on my feet--something I didn’t expect last year.
I never realized how okay it is to have a hard time adjusting until I went through it myself.
Now, I’m excluding my mental health situation which only added fuel to the fire. But I think we often think of anything that isn’t thriving as failure. No one is constantly peaking.
It may be too early to tell, but I already feel grateful that I decided to give UofR--and college in general--another chance. I could have easily transferred or taken the semester off but I’m back and ready to go for Round 2. And even if I decide down the road that this isn’t the place for me, I’m proud that I stayed to prove it wasn’t.
That’s all for now, enjoy getting back to the grind everyone!