trying to be a real college student
Anyone who knows me knows I have never been a kid. One of my mom's favorite stories to tell about me when I was little is when I was in kindergarten...my teacher told this to my parents when they met with her for parent-teacher conferences: Anytime one of the kids in my class would do something stupid, she would look at me and I would just roll my eyes back at her like I was saying, "Kids, am I right?"
This hasn't really gone away and even when I came to college, I found myself feeling very similarly. I never loved going out, drinking all night, stumbling in at 3 in the morning and passing out to be hungover the next morning. Never was my thing. And I found college hard enough to adjust to, I focused on other things first semester and rarely tried to go out and enjoy college in the way that most people do.
Even this semester, with a new outlook and some amazing new friends, it took me over a month to get myself to go out with them. I don't really drink and I have NO stamina so I figured I'd just feel left behind. But, I actually forced myself to go out to what we call "lodges" here at UR (on-campus fraternity houses that host parties with crazy themes every Friday night).
I actually had a blast, too. And I know every college student would roll their eyes at me right now but you really don't have to drink to have fun. I was completely sober and just loved being out with my friends. Most people drink so you don't have to give a shit about anything but the truth is that going out sober just trains you to do that in real life...and trust me that's a valuable skill.
I talk a lot about doing what you want and putting yourself first but that doesn't mean you should never go outside of your comfort zone. I'm definitely patting myself on the back today for forcing myself to be a real college student!
Please note: me saying "a real college student" is total sarcasm... you got that right??
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